blog number four

I have never been so confused by a reading before. I was so confused because I first thought everything was a metaphor but then it wasn't and then it was again. I may be really off but I am honestly trying to understand this. I think that the countryman was subject to the law; I think he was secondary and didn't matter as much as the law did. But in a way, he was also "self" because no one else could get into his gate and that shows his personhood and uniqueness and the qualities that made him himself. I do believe he is determined by the law though because he obviously avoids it and that says more about the law than it does him. I'm trying to figure out if I know what I'm talking about because what I want to say, I don't know if it is connected to this question but I'll say it anyways. I think that people, in general, are subject to the law. We are "selves" as individuals but as a whole we are subjects. I think it is so hard to be untouched by the law because in order to avoid it, it has touched you. This reminds me of the goth kids in high school. They dress all in black and go out of their way to look "different" from everybody else, but they end up looking just like every other goth kid. It kind of reminded me of the countryman because he is trying so hard to not touch something that has such a grasp on him.