Pg. 186 Question #2

Now that I'm really thinking about it, I think that a lot of the goals that I have in my life have so much to do with my upbringing. A lot of my goals are cliche I guess but I really want to get married, have babies, have a good job, and live a long life. My parents have been married for 27 years and they've always reinforced to my brothers and I how important sharing your life is with someone. I know that makes most people want to throw up in their mouth but that's perhaps why I've been with my boyfriend for seven years. Talk about shutting doors. I've always thought that marrying your high school sweetheart is too fairytale-esque.
I have three brothers two of which are slightly older than me and when we were young, my dad used to take a lot of pictures of us. My family is from Poland so my brothers and I all have completely round faces and light blonde hair and we all used to look similar as kids so it made for some interesting photos. Almost everyday my dad would set up his hasselblad and photograph us and he used to give us little disposable cameras to take pictures with. It's interesting to see what little kids take pictures of because of their short angles and weird composition. Because my dad did this, I've always wanted to be a photographer. More of a fashion photographer than anything. I've always been taking pictures and I came to Columbia being a photo major and I lost the love of it because of the $300 a month and 15 hours a week in the darkroom, so I switched to a cultural studies major. Yay! But my point is, all of my aspirations came from my upbringing and it's funny how my brothers and I all ended up in art schools. My goal to be a fashion photographer is "out of reach" mainly because the fashion world doesn't know and doesn't care that I exist, photography is very competitive and I have no desire to sell myself, and Chicago is a bad place to be for fashion.
Most of my goals are not attainable. I want to live to be 300, I want to get married and move to Paris, I want to have five kids none of which are girls, I want to go to the moon, I want to be Richard Avedon, and I want to be a magicians assistant in the early 1900s. I have no means to attain these so I will just what happens to me. I hate goals.